SHARE THE LOVE: "Do I NEED A Boyfriend?" (by LEA MISHELL)

SHARE THE LOVE
Do I NEED a Boyfriend?
by Lea Mishell

I love my PolyAm life!!! The freedom to love whoever I want is so liberating!!!

As a bisexual woman, it took me a while before I found the right man to come out to and let him know that I wanted other women as well as other men. By the time I came out, I only wanted one man when I realized I've only wanted men for sex. Hubby has been more than sexually satisfying since Day 1 so I put a pin in the boyfriend idea... During the time that I've been openly polyamorous, I have all but ignored men for fear that my loving vibe would attract the wrong attention toward me. Until recently. I still can't say that I want a boyfriend but when the thought pops up, my first question is always "Why do you want a boyfriend when you have a husband AND a potential girlfriend?" as if I can't handle multiple relationships. Then the next question: "What if he isn't poly?" I've seen the ups and downs Hubby has gone through to find a girlfriend outside of the poly groups as well as within. I don't expect my search to be easy if I did look for a boyfriend but damn I mean how do you know that he can handle me having a husband and a girlfriend if I don't ask THAT question "Are you polyamorous?" Maybe once I figure out WHY I want a boyfriend then I can decide IF I want a boyfriend.

Recently, I listened to Blacktopia music artist Terrie Rimson’s “Love Come Down.” Hubby heard the song and asked me who did the original song (old school R&B artist Evelyn “Champagne” King for those that forgot or didn’t know) which got me to thinking of conversations we’ve been having about the evolution of our relationship. We’ve reached a point where we are open to dating longtime friends, so long as they are polyamorous or at least ethically non-monogamous. I can only think of a few that I would consider dating, male included. But I still don’t NEED a boyfriend. Loving multiple people requires balance and until I am secure that my connection with my Gorgeous doesn’t disturb my peace with Hubby, the boyfriend thought remains on the shelf.

Terrie’s song also had me thinking it could be the theme song for NRE (New Relationship Energy). The fluttery feeling you have at the beginning of a relationship is so exhilarating! At this point, Hubby and I have ORE (Old Relationship Energy) as it renews with all the ups and downs Life tries to throw at us but we have flickering moments of NREness. Happily, I’m still in NRE mode with my Gorgeous and I would expect the same should I choose to accept an additional Love in my life. He or she would know from the jump that we are not FWBs as my husband and girlfriend will be fully aware who is sharing my time. We could have a separate relationship apart from Hubby and my Gorgeous or an all-inclusive one. I’ve given up on limiting my love. I’m more at peace being poly! 

With the way my life has been going, you would think my book “You Me Him Her” is all about me but trust and believe I am not Mistress Harding! For more about my books, specifically “You Me Him Her”, go to https://leanpub.com/YMHH 


For more polyamory terminology, check out the MORE THAN TWO website: https://www.morethantwo.com/polyglossary.html

If you would like to submit a question to SHARE THE LOVE, send an email to BlacktopiaBusiness@gmail.com with SHARE THE LOVE QUESTION in the subject line.


PeaceLoveHappiness
Lm...

Polyamorous and striving to be Permanently Positive, Lea Mishell is a wife, mother of 3, and an author of urban fairy tales and erotica. Her works can be found at www.leanpub.com/b/TheLeaMishellCollection

SHARE THE LOVE is published exclusively for Blacktopia.org
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SHARE THE LOVE: "Do I NEED a Boyfriend?" (by Lea Mishell)

SHARE THE LOVE
Do I NEED a Boyfriend?
by Lea Mishell


I love my PolyAm life!!! The freedom to love whoever I want is so liberating!!!

As a bisexual woman, it took me a while before I found the right man to come out to and let him know that I wanted other women as well as other men. By the time I came out, I only wanted one man when I realized I've only wanted men for sex. Hubby has been more than sexually satisfying since Day 1 so I put a pin in the boyfriend idea... During the time that I've been openly polyamorous, I have all but ignored men for fear that my loving vibe would attract the wrong attention toward me. Until recently. I still can't say that I want a boyfriend but when the thought pops up, my first question is always "Why do you want a boyfriend when you have a husband AND a potential girlfriend?" as if I can't handle multiple relationships. Then the next question: "What if he isn't poly?" I've seen the ups and downs Hubby has gone through to find a girlfriend outside of the poly groups as well as within. I don't expect my search to be easy if I did look for a boyfriend but damn I mean how do you know that he can handle me having a husband and a girlfriend if I don't ask THAT question "Are you polyamorous?" Maybe once I figure out WHY I want a boyfriend then I can decide IF I want a boyfriend.

Recently, I listened to Blacktopia music artist Terrie Rimson’s “Love Come Down.” Hubby heard the song and asked me who did the original song (old school R&B artist Evelyn “Champagne” King for those that forgot or didn’t know) which got me to thinking of conversations we’ve been having about the evolution of our relationship. We’ve reached a point where we are open to dating longtime friends, so long as they are polyamorous or at least ethically non-monogamous. I can only think of a few that I would consider dating, male included. But I still don’t NEED a boyfriend. Loving multiple people requires balance and until I am secure that my connection with my Gorgeous doesn’t disturb my peace with Hubby, the boyfriend thought remains on the shelf.

Terrie’s song also had me thinking it could be the theme song for NRE (New Relationship Energy). The fluttery feeling you have at the beginning of a relationship is so exhilarating! At this point, Hubby and I have ORE (Old Relationship Energy) as it renews with all the ups and downs Life tries to throw at us but we have flickering moments of NREness. Happily, I’m still in NRE mode with my Gorgeous and I would expect the same should I choose to accept an additional Love in my life. He or she would know from the jump that we are not FWBs as my husband and girlfriend will be fully aware who is sharing my time. We could have a separate relationship apart from Hubby and my Gorgeous or an all-inclusive one. I’ve given up on limiting my love. I’m more at peace being poly! 

With the way my life has been going, you would think my book “You Me Him Her” is all about me but trust and believe I am not Mistress Harding! For more about my books, specifically “You Me Him Her”, go to https://leanpub.com/YMHH 


For more polyamory terminology, check out the MORE THAN TWO website: https://www.morethantwo.com/polyglossary.html

If you would like to submit a question to SHARE THE LOVE, send an email to BlacktopiaBusiness@gmail.com with SHARE THE LOVE QUESTION in the subject line.


PeaceLoveHappiness
Lm...

Polyamorous and striving to be Permanently Positive, Lea Mishell is a wife, mother of 3, and an author of urban fairy tales and erotica. Her works can be found at www.leanpub.com/b/TheLeaMishellCollection

SHARE THE LOVE is published exclusively for Blacktopia.org
© 2016-2017 Lea Mishell. All rights reserved.
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SHARE THE LOVE: So... Y'all WANT Me To Cheat (by Lea Mishell)

SHARE THE LOVE
So… Y'all WANT Me To Cheat?!
by Lea Mishell

I love my PolyAm life but let's be honest: Monogamy breeds cheaters!!!

Think about it. One of the main differences between an open relationship and cheating is the level of honesty and transparency in the relationship, if any. Those of us in polyamorous relationships should have less stress and worries about our partners due to the fact that our compersion* allows us to encourage them to seek more love as most of us unselfishly benefit from their lovers’ actions and added positive energy. Honestly speaking, when I attempted to live my life monogamously, I was MISERABLE knowing I was SUPPOSED to be loyal to ONE although my heart longed for MORE. The idea of monogamy is unnatural to most of us but because SOCIETY says we have to settle for one partner, most of us attempt to do so and fail… repeatedly. Last I checked, Society wasn't my Mama and that's the only person I NEVER questioned. I question Society way too much to keep IT happy while I'M unhappy. Fuck that! LIVE YOUR LIFE!

I recently read an article about open relationships and the writer was very much on point with my transition from monogamy to polyamory. As I've admitted before, I have always been polyamorous but I didn't truly put my thoughts into in my actions until my second and final marriage. Part of the reason I waited so long to marry again was because of my desire for multiple lovers. At that point, I thought the only way for ME to be married was for me to have a husband and a secret lover. No one should enter into a marriage with that thought pattern!! Why get married if your intention is to lie to the one you claim to love?! Clearly anyone that suggests that you do so doesn't give a damn about you. As I’ve said before, cheaters are selfish. I actually had a former lover offer to continue his services if I ever decided to get married. He had no desire of a wife of his own but he was more than willing to take any sexual offers he was given. Needless to say, that was the last time I spoke to him. 

My husband has also had his share of shady women trying to be his side chick but when he tells them he’s married, not leaving me for them, not paying their bills or having unprotected sex, they back away from him. Thank you Trifling Women for changing your mind about pursuing Hubby. We have no desire to entertain any cowgirls*.

Neither my husband nor I want to associate ourselves with anyone that disrespects their relationships by cheating but let's be honest. If we disowned any and EVERYONE we knew that has EVER cheated on their mate, we wouldn't have friends or each other! Instead, we choose to educate our friends, loved ones and anyone that may be curious about how we are loving each other and our loves in an open marriage. It's truly been a blessing for us and my first word of advice, whether you're monogamous or polyamorous, is to delete the idea of possessing your mate in any way. Monogamy isn't for everyone and a ring on your finger shouldn’t equate to a ball and chain or being on lockdown so treat your partner the way you want to be treated: with dignity, respect, honesty and transparency. When you're comfortable enough to tell your mate about a new love and they share in your happiness, what is there to be jealous about? What is there to lie about? Other than selfishness, what reason is there to cheat?!

I no longer have the desire or necessity to be a cheater. I am in an honest, transparent, and respectful open marriage with a man that encourages me to seek the love that I need. No lies. No secrets. Much less stress and arguments. Polyamory may not be for everyone but transparency and honesty are paramount in ALL relationships.

*For more polyamory terminology, check out the MORE THAN TWO website: https://www.morethantwo.com/polyglossary.html

If you would like to submit a question to SHARE THE LOVE, send an email to BlacktopiaBusiness@gmail.com with SHARE THE LOVE QUESTION in the subject line.

PeaceLoveHappiness
Lm...

Polyamorous and striving to be Permanently Positive, Lea Mishell is a wife, mother of 3, and an author of urban fairy tales and erotica. Her works can be found at www.leanpub.com/b/TheLeaMishellCollection

SHARE THE LOVE is published exclusively for Blacktopia.org

© 2016-2017 Lea Mishell. All rights reserved.




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SHARE THE LOVE: Live Your Life Without Regrets (by LEA MISHELL)

SHARE THE LOVE
Live Your Life Without Regrets
by Lea Mishell

I love my PolyAm life but let's be honest: Reality truly bites!!!

You may have noticed that I've switched to a monthly format for SHARE THE LOVE. Initially, I wanted to write weekly but at the time that I started writing STL, I was coming to grips with the failures my husband and I had experienced during our first year of living openly polyamorous. Feeling the need to help others learn from my mistakes, I posted topics based on past experiences while having new and better ones, molded from what I continuously learn. After juggling family, work and writing for years, it's been difficult for me to put my writing on the backburner but in order for me to produce quality writing, I need to fully experience my life. I can't fully enjoy my life without my family or my writing. My writing isn't financially supporting my family so I have to work. Life. Happens.

So this year, I switched to a monthly schedule and it was fine until this month. I hope that it's posted before May 31st but if it isn't, that doesn't mean I won't write for June also. As long as I have breath in my lungs, I will write. Just bear with me as my phone was stolen on May 4th from my current PayJob. I know exactly who did it and I don't expect my property returned so I'm leaving it up to Karma to sort that out while I keep moving forward.

Since I’ve last chatted with you, Hubby has met my Gorgeous lady friend and all continues to be well. As I am the pivot of our dynamic, I have kept them updated about each other since I met her and it was a joy to see them interact in person. In addition to me, they have much in common, the main fact that they are both Leos. I already know the challenge of a male Leo from my marriage to Hubby but I was raised by a Leo mother so, if anything, adding a Gorgeous Leo lady may be just the balance I need!

I've had moments in my life where I may have made an error in judgment at that time but EVERY choice I've made has led me to THIS moment so to be honest, I'm thankful for the choices I've made so far. Because of them, I am happily living in an openly polyamorous marriage instead of limiting myself to one person while craving more. I have allowed myself to explore a portion of my life that I felt I needed to suppress in order to be loved not knowing that I was not only limiting who I loved but also who I allowed into my life. My life story is still being written and it won't stop until the day I die so until then, I refuse to live a life of regret.

“Never do anything you'll regret. Never regret anything you do.” - Lea Mishell

For more polyamory terminology, check out the MORE THAN TWO website: https://www.morethantwo.com/polyglossary.html

If you would like to submit a question to SHARE THE LOVE, send an email to BlacktopiaBusiness@gmail.com with SHARE THE LOVE QUESTION in the subject line.

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Lm...

Polyamorous and striving to be Permanently Positive, Lea Mishell is a wife, mother of 3, and an author of urban fairy tales and erotica. Her works can be found at www.leanpub.com/b/TheLeaMishellCollection

SHARE THE LOVE is published exclusively for Blacktopia.org

© 2016-2017 Lea Mishell. All rights reserved.

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SHARE THE LOVE: Married and Dating vs. Married and Cheating/Cheated On (by Lea Mishell)

SHARE THE LOVE
Married and Dating vs. Married and Cheating/Cheated On
by Lea Mishell

I love my PolyAm life!!!

I don't understand why some people are more accepting of the idea of cheating than polyamory. I would rather be open and honest. Cheating is a choice of the selfish. My monogamous life was selfish. I had no issue being with someone who was already involved with someone else except I didn't care if their love knew about me. I care now. I put myself in everyone's shoes and I prefer that we are all open and honest and aware of each other's presence. With AIDS and countless STIs floating around, honesty is paramount in EVERY relationship, whether it's monogamous, polyamorous, etc. Plus, being honest is less stressful! No secrets to keep track of, hoping wishing praying that your main lover doesn't find out about your side love(s). And if they do, the hoping wishing praying they don't leave your selfish cheating ass! We all deserve love and respect. There is no way in hell any cheater can say they fully love anyone they can't be 100% honest with. And if you're the one being cheated on, I pray you will someday have enough self-respect to stop lying to yourself and start your life with someone else if not on your own. No one deserves to be lied to and disrespected by being cheated on.

Since I've been in constant contact with a particular Gorgeous lady, I've removed myself from dating sites as I am not actively searching for a girlfriend. However, while I was on those sites as well as a recent Instagram incident, I have had my share of men that just can't understand how I “allow” my husband to date other women, how he “allows” me to date other women, why I don't want to date men anymore… Do they assume Hubby should just cheat on me since he's allowed to date outside the marriage? That I should want them instead of women? That since I'm dating women that I should date them and their girlfriend? Ya know what they say about assumptions… Not one for name calling,  allow me, instead, to answer a few of those questions/assumptions.

1. Cheating involves lying and selfishness which goes against the honesty and transparency of polyamory so couple that with the depth of his love for me, I highly doubt my husband will cheat on me.

2. Prior to this marriage, I was also in the closet living heterosexually. Gentlemen, THAT was your chance to date me. Sorry, but I no longer have any desire to date men since Hubby is all the testosterone I need in my life! Just because I'm bisexual and polyamorous doesn't mean I want a boyfriend, too. There are plenty of AVAILABLE women out there, trust me!!

3. Refer to #2 and let me add that I only want one man and one woman in my life. Hubby has filled the male position and the only couples I would date would be lesbian or bisexual females because, say it with me… I DON'T DATE MEN ANYMORE.

Married and Dating sounds much better than Married and Cheating/Cheated On. Monogamy shouldn't be an assumption when there are other ways for EVERYONE to love and be happy. Knowing that I could never be happy with just one love not to mention choosing which gender to live happily ever after with when I truly wanted a girlfriend/wife AND a boyfriend/husband in my life was too much stress for me to carry any longer! Now that I'm married to a polyamorous heterosexual man, he and I are happily enjoying our open marriage and we are allowing the Universe to guide us to her/her to us.

Did I mention that I love my PolyAm (polyamorous) life?!

For more polyamory terminology, check out the MORE THAN TWO website: https://www.morethantwo.com/polyglossary.html

If you would like to submit a question to SHARE THE LOVE, send an email to BlacktopiaBusiness@gmail.com with SHARE THE LOVE QUESTION in the subject line.

PeaceLoveHappiness
Lm...

Polyamorous and striving to be Permanently Positive, Lea Mishell is a wife, mother of 3, and an author of urban fairy tales and erotica. Her works can be found at www.leanpub.com/b/TheLeaMishellCollection

SHARE THE LOVE is published exclusively for Blacktopia.org

© 2016-2017 Lea Mishell. All rights reserved.

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Universal Colloquies Inside of Me is a book of poetry that asks its readers to have conversations that go beyond the surface.  It takes you on a journey in philosophy, sociology, self-awareness, and love while using rhythmic eloquence to highlight often felt yet unexpressed feelings and circumstances.  The author utilizes nature in a variation of ways to illustrate how we are all connected and the messages and life lessons really are universal. Although, they are often transmitted and received in different ways. From the beginning Vee tells you exactly who she is in the poem entitled “Who Am I” as she addresses all of those things within the pages to follow. It is a book that will leave you feeling inspired while also giving you a different perspective about some things.  Overall it will definitely lead to having deeper conversations also known as colloquies. 
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SHARE THE LOVE: I Never Switched Teams. I've ALWAYS Been Co-Ed! (by Lea Mishell)

SHARE THE LOVE
I Never Switched Teams. I've ALWAYS Been Co-Ed!
by Lea Mishell

Hello Loves!! If you've been following along with my journey, thank you. Trust me, it has been QUITE the rollercoaster ride!

OK so by now you know that I'm bisexual but if you know me in real life and I haven't been in touch with you for the past few years, you may be under the false impression that I've “switched teams” now that I'm no longer dating men. On the contrary. I never saw the need to announce my sexuality to the world, least of all to anyone I didn't feel was worthy of the life I was offering to share with them. I'm thankful for my patience as each man I've encountered has prepared me for my life with Hubby. And the women that I have met are preparing me for my future with Her, whoever she may be. Over the years, I kept finding pieces of what I needed from various people. When I realized that I would never get everything I needed from one person, I opened my heart to love more freely. It wasn't the simplest thing to find someone who could be honest, trusting, transparent and protective. All the things I am, I found in him and I hope to find in her as well.

I have always wanted to spend my life with two Loves, a man and a woman. If I were single, I would be considered a unicorn since ideally I could've found everything I wanted within an established couple. Considering I wasn't openly bisexual until recently, searching for a couple wasn't on my radar although a few made it known that they were interested in me. If I fully trusted my partners prior to marriage, I would've blended well in the swinger life but it was stressful enough trusting the men I had been dealing with. Once I found a man I fully trusted, I no longer had the desire for multiple sexual partners when what I truly wanted and needed were multiple LOVING partners! My plan was to establish my relationship with my girlfriend then together she and I would find a man that would faithfully love two bisexual women that want to love him in return. She might not want to be POP* like me but I'm perfectly happy with the only penis in my life: Hubby's. However, I was already in heterosexual mode when I met Hubby so I made a slight adjustment to my life path and now I'm #StillLookingForHer

So there you have it. I never switched teams. Just because I played with the boys didn't mean I wasn't checking out the girls! And just because I'm married doesn't mean I stopped dating. Well… I stopped dating MEN… I'm all about the Ladies now!

* POP: Prefer One Penis, as opposed to OPP, One Penis Policy

For more polyamory terminology, check out the MORE THAN TWO website: https://www.morethantwo.com/polyglossary.html

If you would like to submit a question to SHARE THE LOVE, send an email to BlacktopiaBusiness@gmail.com with SHARE THE LOVE QUESTION in the subject line.

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Lm...

Polyamorous and striving to be Permanently Positive, Lea Mishell is a wife, mother of 3, and an author of urban fairy tales and erotica. Her works can be found at www.leanpub.com/b/TheLeaMishellCollection

SHARE THE LOVE is published exclusively for Blacktopia.org

© 2016-2017 Lea Mishell. All rights reserved.


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SHARE THE LOVE: Love Begets Love (by Lea Mishell)

SHARE THE LOVE
Love Begets Love
by Lea Mishell

As much love as I have to share with the World, I feel like EVERY day is Valentine's Day so it baffles me that so many of you wait for one day of the year to express your feelings. You are aware that tomorrow isn't promised and that you should live each day as if it's your last one, right? Imagine that. Today is your last day to profess your love for someone. What would you do?!

It would be YEARS before I cared that sex does not equal love. Yeah yeah yeah I had my own daddy issues. As much as he loved my mother, my father also loved his wife and their children. Had everyone been in agreement, I could've grown up in a polyamorous home. Of course my mother knew about my father's wife and his wife knew about my mother. My mother knew my father had kids with his wife before I was conceived as well as another one with his wife after me. But my father's wife wouldn't give him a divorce so that he could marry my mother. All because of LOVE. My father loved two women and he was honest with them both. I was conceived from his love with my mother. If they knew then what I know now, my life would've become polyamorous much sooner. But they didn't know. Or they knew but they were scared to openly love whoever they wanted. Cheating was less frowned upon than polyamory. Crazy huh?

Many good things came from the union of my parents, including their overflowing capacity to love being passed down to me. As I grew up and matured, I wasn't encouraged to explore or ask questions nor was I an extremely curious child. I always felt comfortable in the company of two or more friends around me. I felt safe, loved and secure when I was around familiar faces. My loving nature drew a variety of people toward me, young and old. It wouldn't be until I was harmed on several occasions (physically, mentally, sexually) that I began to shut down and become a loner. You can't get hurt if no one is there to hurt you. But, little did I know, my solitude WAS hurting me. Still needing a physical touch, with no desire to allow my heart to hurt again, I began my promiscuous phase. Looking back, I was tame compared to what I write in my books because deep in my heart, I desired LOVE. Hold me all night until morning love. Call just to hear my voice love. Cooking to make sure I've had a meal love. Spend the rest of our life together love.

My husband is the one man that proved to me what LOVE is. Seeing my parents as the example of a relationship, I saw flashes of what Hubby gives me. The looks they've shared I've had with my husband but the difference is with our love, we're looking at each other with honesty, transparency AND we're in agreement with loving others. Loving others isn't a crime. Not loving yourself is damage enough. And if you love someone, let them know. If my parents had held back, I wouldn't be here. If I had held back, I wouldn't have the lovely life I'm living and you wouldn't have this informative and entertaining column to read. See? Sharing love is ALL GOOD!!

For more stories of love, read my SistaGirlz urban fairy tale book series available at https://leanpub.com/b/SistaGirlzBooks 

For more polyamory terminology, check out the MORE THAN TWO website: https://www.morethantwo.com/polyglossary.html

If you would like to submit a question to SHARE THE LOVE, send an email to BlacktopiaBusiness@gmail.com with SHARE THE LOVE QUESTION in the subject line.

PeaceLoveHappiness
Lm...

Polyamorous and striving to be Permanently Positive, Lea Mishell is a wife, mother of 3, and an author of urban fairy tales and erotica. Her works can be found at www.leanpub.com/b/TheLeaMishellCollection

SHARE THE LOVE is published exclusively for Blacktopia.org

© 2016-2017 Lea Mishell. All rights reserved.


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R&B singer, songwriter and Blacktopian Nikia is back with another great single scheduled to be released on iTunes February 28th!  The single is titled "Gone" (featuring Dee).  


You can also pre-order the single on Amazon at this direct link 
https://www.amazon.com/Gone-feat-Dee/dp/B01N37FX8D/ref=redir_mobile_desktop?_encoding=UTF8&dpID=415CVjWJLRL&dpPl=1&keywords=nikia&pi=AC_SX236_SY340_FMwebp_QL65&qid=1485697431&ref=plSrch&ref_=mp_s_a_1_1&sr=1-1

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SHARE THE LOVE: Polyamory For Penis/P**sy (by Lea Mishell)

SHARE THE LOVE
"Polyamory For Penis/P**sy"
by Lea Mishell







Hello Loves!! If you've been following along with my journey, thank you. Trust me, it has been QUITE the rollercoaster ride!

I've decided to once again allow the Universe to guide my Love my way. It worked before when I found Hubby. I believe it'll happen again if it hasn't already. In the meantime, in my observations and interactions as I am continuously educating myself on all things polyamorous, I am a member of a few polyamory-centered Facebook groups. In one of the co-ed groups, we've made it clear that we are not a swingers group and no nudity will be allowed. However, from time to time, a new member will come in, skipping past the pinned post, unknowingly breaking rules left and right. I cannot speak for anyone but myself but we are not polyamorous just for the sake of sex. We are not thirsty horny desperados out for the next notch on our belts. You can't build love overnight. Relationships take time. Sex can be instantaneous so if sex is your first thought when considering polyamory, stop. Clearly, you're not ready. Polyamory isn't about sex. Polyamory is about loving anyone you want without hurting others to do it. Polyamory is about honesty and transparency amongst all partners, romantic or not. But I digress. I know it will be a while before polyamory is as normal as homosexuality and same-sex marriage but to falsely associate love with sex doesn't help those of us that are genuinely and legitimately looking for love.

If you've read the past two articles (“How to Date a Married Woman” and “How to Date a Married Couple”), and you have a genuine interest in living polyamorously, I hope my column is helping you figure things out. Feel free to ask questions.


For more polyamory terminology, check out the MORE THAN TWO website: https://www.morethantwo.com/polyglossary.html

If you would like to submit a question to SHARE THE LOVE, send an email to BlacktopiaBusiness@gmail.com with SHARE THE LOVE QUESTION in the subject line.

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Polyamorous and striving to be Permanently Positive, Lea Mishell is a wife, mother of 3, and an author of urban fairy tales and erotica. Her works can be found at www.leanpub.com/b/TheLeaMishellCollection

SHARE THE LOVE is published exclusively for Blacktopia.org

© 2016-2017 Lea Mishell. All rights reserved.


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